my dearest HANAN.

just so u know, i'm getting all emo-ish as well.
i dont know why, but i'm feeling so depressed.
i cried my heart out all of a sudden.
i think i'm missing everything.
i miss my happiness, my joy, my life.
most of all, i miss him.

i've got nothing to do but cry and cry and cry.
i may look all stucked up.
but yes, i'm weak. very weak.
i tried acting like i'm alright.
like nothing happened.
like i've got over everything.
by laughing and fooling around.
but i cant do it anymore.
i have to stop pretending.
i do love him very much.
never expected this to happen.
never thought those days would come to an end.

i've always reminded myself, i've got friends.
awesome friends.
and i totally love my friends.
but what if, i lose them.
i'm scared.
life is unfair as death.
i would do anything, just anything, to get my life back.
my wonderful, joyful, unpretentious life.
enough with one special friend leaving me.
i pray to god each day, so i could keep my friends.
please, dont leave me like he did.
u know who u are, friends.


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